so i've been thinking....

as i use my lunch hour at work to read others' blogs and live vicariously through their posts, i realize that i have long tried to live other people's lives instead of living my own. of course, i do it through daydreams and invented scenarios. some days i feel as though i've wasted months or years of my life stressing over the future. my husband says i get passionate about the silliest things. he's right. i often imagine if i would just use that same energy to make a difference in this world what awesome things i might be able to achieve. but i seem to have the worst case of adult a.d.d. or lack of drive or laziness (whatever you want to label it). i like so many different things i don't know where to focus my energies. in reality, it's amazing that i have a full-time paying job and two degrees. then again, when you're avoiding failure, you stick to the only things you know that have resulted in success.